I just want to say I'm doing swell.
I am happy. I am extremely content.
I've rediscovered that kindling joy alive within my core. It's an undistinguishable hope.
There are still tears and fears which will come and go, but they add to rather than diminish to the purity of my joy. Emotion add depth to living.
I can cloud it, I can taint it. It won't completly vanish, but the brightness will tarnish. Without careful sparks and attention I could lose it. My decisions have an impact, but now that I've discovered such a joy, I'm going to cling to it as much as possible.
night
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
two seconds to spare
So I had 5 minutes left on my break, so I was going to type up a little blog... BUT then this lady came and talked to me... so now I have one minute. Let's keep it brief.
It's spring break now for me.
There is a boy that has caught my attention - wouldn't say it's anything more than that. It could go somewhere though, so I'm kind of overly excited.
I'm running three camps this week; I am at work from about 8 am to 5:30. The first two days were really hard because I had no idea what I was doing. Now I've got the swing of things, the kids feel more comfortable with me and things are running smoothly. As much as I might get frusterated with so many kids so much of the time (went home yesterday to babysit and will again today,) I just adore them. They make me laugh true joyful laughter. It's not that they have an amazing sense of humour of course; it's the innocent excitment they radiate, it fills you up with glee and then bubbles out in wonderful, real laughter.
I had a girls night last night with some old friends and some pretty new ones. It was amazing, but I don't think it was a good idea to drink so much and come home so late.
And finally, I met with a new social worker yesterday. She actually seems to give a shit. It's amazing.
PEACE.
It's spring break now for me.
There is a boy that has caught my attention - wouldn't say it's anything more than that. It could go somewhere though, so I'm kind of overly excited.
I'm running three camps this week; I am at work from about 8 am to 5:30. The first two days were really hard because I had no idea what I was doing. Now I've got the swing of things, the kids feel more comfortable with me and things are running smoothly. As much as I might get frusterated with so many kids so much of the time (went home yesterday to babysit and will again today,) I just adore them. They make me laugh true joyful laughter. It's not that they have an amazing sense of humour of course; it's the innocent excitment they radiate, it fills you up with glee and then bubbles out in wonderful, real laughter.
I had a girls night last night with some old friends and some pretty new ones. It was amazing, but I don't think it was a good idea to drink so much and come home so late.
And finally, I met with a new social worker yesterday. She actually seems to give a shit. It's amazing.
PEACE.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
BEST.
| God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen. --Reinhold Niebuhr | |
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3, 5-6 | |
NOM NOM NOM
Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice
at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."
- Mary Anne Radmacher
God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
- Reinhold Niebuhr
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
- Anonymous
I am the master of my emotions - I transform fear to love, anger to compassion, pain to comfort, scarcity to abundance, expectation to gratitude, and jealousy to generosity.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie
The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
- Franklin D. Roosevelt
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice
at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."
- Mary Anne Radmacher
God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
- Reinhold Niebuhr
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
- Anonymous
I am the master of my emotions - I transform fear to love, anger to compassion, pain to comfort, scarcity to abundance, expectation to gratitude, and jealousy to generosity.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie
The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
- Franklin D. Roosevelt
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I find sentimental peace reliving moments that have been stained with happiness. I am surrounded with a sea of faithful love. Love expected from me, and love left for me. I am not alone. I never have to be. As we step into the last semester of highschool and I walk through my last days of being 17, I am letting go of fear. I'm releasing my hesitations. I'm going for it. I'm exchanging my anxieties for hope and strength. I am accepting help and love and trusting in promises. I am going for it. I'm believing in something bigger. I'm holding on to love - love of friends, family, God and life. I surround myself with it by embracing those I hold dear. |
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Oh me oh my.
He says I need to be rescued.
Does he not see that I can stand on my own? Sure, I'll fall down.
No matter how I may wish,
I can't trust his grip because he can't promise
he won't let go.
I'm worried that if I allow myself to lean too much, I'll lose balance.
But today, he is holding on.
And today, I shall enjoy it.
Tomorrow may be a different story,
Maybe I don't NEED to be rescued, but .. maybe I'd wouldn't mind ;)
he won't let go.
I'm worried that if I allow myself to lean too much, I'll lose balance.
But today, he is holding on.
And today, I shall enjoy it.
Tomorrow may be a different story,
but why flip forward and miss the good stuff?
Maybe I don't NEED to be rescued, but .. maybe I'd wouldn't mind ;)
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